FONG's LiFe

突然好想你

2010-07-28T18:22:00.000+08:00

最怕空气突然安静最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你你会在哪里过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你突然锋利的回忆突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜那麽美那麽相信
那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去

突然好想你你会在哪里过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你突然锋利的回忆突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

最怕此生已经决定自己过没有你 .
却又突然听到你的消息

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根某某谈起各自的EX，突然想起这首歌。。。分手一个多月了，才记得要听这首歌。。。i fall in love with mayday again!

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲变成两部悲伤的电影

i never appreciate this song till now..最难忘的旅行留下最痛的纪念品 how true is this! i deleted messages he sent, i untagged my photos taken with him..it was sweet, but no longer..it hurts now..

Its a fact that it is a disappointment to see this relationship walk to this end, and although the feeling of it still there and havent gone completely, but i believe one day, this feeling will be no more and will be replace by joy and happiness! =D

funny to have a friend told me today, "one day you and him will surely be together again" i wonder why she said that..but sounds so impossible to me now..he is no longer interested, why should i then? even if he is interested again, i just can't see me risking myself to be hurt by the same person, the same way again..love is not blind..
well..if God really wanted that to happen, let Him change my heart then, it is not impossible, but it will not be easy..

i can't change the fact, but i can change the way i view it, and my feelings will thus changed, too!

Time to enjoy being single again! Break up is good, so that i know how it feels and i can encourage those who share the same situation to stay strong in heart, and stay strong in God's everlasting love! =D

<幸福>　陈晓东

2010-01-05T11:18:00.000+08:00

"幸福,不是每一天都有,错过以后要等很久很久..."　太幸福了,往往会被爱冲昏头.　太幸福了,不敢相信一切都是真的.　太幸福了,这幸福会到永远吗?　　想到以后和未来,爱情真的可靠吗?真的能当面包吃吗?　只有爱情,或许不能满足我所有的需求,唯有神的爱能为我们的未来作出保障,　也只有他的大爱能让一切的梦想实现　=)

死 -- 什么感觉？

2009-07-29T00:00:00.001+08:00

很难相像。看着自己死去，是什么感觉。
是悲伤？是痛苦？是失望？是无奈？感觉无助？还是解脱？
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昨天下午姐姐来看我，
她扶我走去厕所，我还能坐在椅子上陪她聊天。

今天早上，姐姐也来看我，
但我躺在床上，感觉非常没有力气，需要氧气帮助呼吸之余，还要吊水和注入多巴酚丁胺,防止脱水和提高血压，身体也因为血压低的原因而进入急性肾衰竭状况，使得情况更而严重。

医生说他会尽全力，但我可以感觉我的呼吸越来越辛苦，我想回家。

姐姐告诉医生，昨天下午看我还好好的，怎么突然情况变得那么坏，

医生说，是时候了。
姐姐泪如雨下。

医生与我的姐姐交谈了一阵子过后，姐姐进来为我祈祷和念圣经。姐姐说她会尽快安排我回去。
护士进来为我把我身上的管子全拆掉。姐夫安排的救护车也到了。大家移我上救护车后，姐姐牵着我的手回家。

我能感觉姐姐在流泪，但我实在没力气，去安慰她。

我能感觉我慢慢地失去意识，我想我应该已经到家了吧？

我实在撑不住了，

我，真的要回天家去了。

再见了。

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整个过程
太快了,

我不清楚
我到最后是否已经接受这个
结局,

也来不及收拾-
到底这是什么
感觉.

都已经发生了,
就酱吧...

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虽然如此,我还是愿意相信,上帝安排的一切都是为我好的.

桜坂　福山雅治

2009-06-12T06:22:00.002+08:00

桜坂

君よずっと幸せに風にそっと歌うよ
愛は今も愛のままで

揺れる木漏れ日薫る桜坂
悲しみに似た薄紅色
君がいた恋をしていた
君じゃなきゃダメなのにひとつになれず
愛と知っていたのに春はやってくるのに
夢は今も夢のままで

頬にくちづけ染まる桜坂
抱きしめたい気持ちでいっぱいだった
この街でずっとふたりで
無邪気すぎた約束涙に変わる
愛と知っていたのに花はそっと咲くのに
君は今も君のままで

逢えないけど季節は変わるけど　愛しき人

君だけがわかってくれた
憧れを追いかけて僕は生きるよ
愛と知っていたのに春はやってくるのに
夢は今も夢のままで
君よずっと幸せに風にそっと歌うよ
愛は今も愛のままで

＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝

希望你永遠都幸福　隨著風我輕輕哼唱

對你的愛　還是沒變

櫻花數在空中搖擺　花相四溢的櫻阪

與悲傷的顏色相同　淺淺的粉紅色

有你在身邊　我們相戀

無法想像失去你　卻已分離

我明白這就是愛情　春天即將來臨　

心中的夢　未曾實現

在臉頰上留下吻　染紅了的櫻阪

腦海中滿是想擁你入懷的? 在這個城市中我們永遠不分離

這個承諾太過天真　終究變成了眼淚

我明白這就是愛情　櫻花悄悄綻放

熟悉的你　依然如昔

雖然不在相見　雖然季節會改變你仍是我愛的人

只有你明白我　

一起追逐那憧憬我會好好生存的

我明白這就是愛情　春天即將來臨

心中的夢　未曾實現

希望你永遠都幸福　隨著風我輕輕哼唱

對你的愛　還是沒變

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终于可以写中文了！！好开心哦！

这首歌找了很久，终于找到完整的歌词和翻译。而且电脑也不会出现格子，哈哈！

(use this link for song “http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=azktX3O7Qt4

Love

2009-06-04T20:21:00.003+08:00

Love is patient,
Love is kind.
Love does not envy,
Love does not boast,
Love is not proud.
Love is not rude,
Love is not self-seeking,
Love is not easily angered,
Love keeps no record or wrong doings.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
Love always protects,
Love always trust,
Love always hopes,
Love always perseveres.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Death!

2009-04-22T18:22:00.001+08:00

My goodness! what is this man..long time no blog suddenly got mood to blog already then i find... CHINESE STAR NOT INSTALLED YET!!! where is the cd? mana? bin dou? na li?? oh...i think lent to cousin already...haihz.....another episode of depression....during the thunder and storm season, my comp suffered a premature death, failed to resusitate, (depressed) so me and my bro decided to let it undergo transplantation. So it survive! with the old outer skin but all new organs.. (happy for a while) but of course, new hard disk, so all my sweet memories, including my pics and songs all gone. (depressed again..)...and all OS and office have to install again..so CSTAR have to wait for a moment more after my cousin return me the CD...

jz imagine someone you love, you spent many yrs with this person, ups and downs, sweet and sour memories, suddenly accident, survived, but lost all memories, the relationship have to rebuild once more..oh..so sad...

but well, another point of view is that this is a new life! It is no longer the same as the last anymore! Just like when we born again in the spirit of Christ we are no longer the same anymore! new life, better life, better functions, better role, and a promised better future by God! old memories? it is just the few yrs of life, we will create more memories in the future and in eternity!

so, depression, go away please. the master in my house do not welcome you! and my house is jam packed with love, joy and peace and i dun have enough room for you.

btw...i actually not so depressed as you would think (la), its kinda sad when all the pics and songs cant survive anymore, but think again, it is my real living life that matters, not the dead pics and songs..so after all..i'm okay..if still can retreat from the old hard disk then thank god, if not then its okay (la), thank god also, cuz help me realize what is more important in life! =)

只有上帝知道

2008-04-11T01:49:00.003+08:00

学弟进院了。很严重。下一分钟是生是死，只有上帝知道。老师在他身边为他祈祷、照顾他。他只是她的学生。实话，我很难相信，这样的关心，叫做“爱”。长大在充满心机的社会，我常被提醒：不要太过相信对你好的人，他们都有目的的。如果有人对我太好，我会害怕。这个人到底要从我身上得到什么？还是他想让大家知道他是多么地有爱心？又或者… 借口太多，我就是不愿意相信。

学弟进院了。大家为他祈祷。好多人哭了。整个学校，不是每个人都跟他熟，但谁也不愿失去一个学弟，或一个学长，或一名学生，或一个同班同学，更加不愿意── 一位好朋友。

很严重。一直以来都知道，只是直到身边的人都变成这样，才愿意相信。血不停地流，肺积水不能自己呼吸了。这个喉，那个管，在加护病房里，看到的都心疼。别过脸去，只看见泪痕。

Hide me now, under your wings. Cover me, within Your mighty Hands.

只有上帝知道。

Kau yang terindah

2008-03-01T13:39:00.003+08:00

Kau yang terindah lyrics
Kau yang terindah, di dalam hidup ini
Tiada Allah Tuhan yang seperti Engkau
Gagah perkasa penuh kemuliaan.

Kau yang termanis, di dalam hidup ini
Ku cinta Kau lebih dari segalanya
Besar kemuliaan Mu kepada ku

Ku sembah Kau, ya Allah ku
Ku tinggikan namaMu selalu
Tiada lutut tak bertelut
Engkaulah Yesus Tuhan Rajaku

Ku sembah Kau, ya Allah ku
Ku tinggikan namaMu selalu
Tiada lidah tak mengaku
Engkaulah Yesus Tuhan Rajanku
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It's been so long since i update my blog, kinda busy especially now shifted to sri kembangan.. so far away from home and my mom also ask me to stay in hostel dun go home so often cuz it's dangerous and expensive..
For the last 3 months, lotsa things had happened...(as usual) i can say kinda relief for me somehow... at first i thought im gonna start a relationship this year...at first i really think he wants to, that week kinda like...omg, hmm...try my best la... but somehow when finally decided not to start this year, i find this is the best for us... we planned but God will determine our steps.

Yesterday was the 2nd CF since i'm back to class. As usual i reminded my friends to come. I love being in it.. but when i got home, one of my friend told me that this CF was not as fun as last time when she follow me to CG. And from another friend i knew that this friend of mine told her next time she dunwan come already becuz it's rather boring. I feel disappointed. If she has God in her heart she wouldn't have said that. But still, up to her to come or not to for the next one. Psalm127:1 Unless the Lord builds the house, the builders labor in vain. Perhaps God has make her this way, so that in future He can touch her heart more deeper.

Know what...now my class schedule is like.. class 8am-5pm, then night class 8-10pm every weekdays. and 8am class for us i'm suppose to reach by 7.45am... saturday and sunday we are suppose to go back to college at least 4 hours to practise OSCE. Only thru suffers we grow.. so i will just accept it..more over study is forever more enjoyable than working...=)

Only Human - 1 Litre of Tears

2007-11-25T16:11:00.001+08:00

Only Human
作詞: 小山内舞作曲: 松尾潔・田中直

哀しみの向こう岸に
微笑みがあるというよ

哀しみの向こう岸に
微笑みがあるというよ
たどり着くその先には
何が僕らを待ってる?

逃げるためじゃなく　夢追うために
旅に出たはずさ　遠い夏のあの日

明日さえ見えたなら　ため息もないけど
流れに逆らう舟のように
今は　前へ　進め

苦しみの尽きた場所に
幸せが待つというよ
僕はまだ探している
季節はずれの向日葵

こぶし握りしめ　朝日を待てば
赤い爪あとに　涙　キラリ　落ちる

孤独にも慣れたなら
月明かり頼りに
羽根なき翼で飛び立とう
もっと　前へ　進め

雨雲が切れたなら
濡れた道　かがやく
闇だけが教えてくれる
強い　強い　光
強く　前へ　進め

Only Human (translated)
Lyrics: Osanai Mai Translation: Jonathan Wu

On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile

On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile
But before we can go there,
is there something we’re waiting for?

In order to chase our dreams, we can’t have a reason to run away
We’ve got to go, to that far away summer’s day

If we find it tomorrow, we can’t sigh
Because like a boat that opposes the stream
we have to walk straight on

In a place worn down by sadness
something called a miracle, is waiting
Yet we are still searching
for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring

The warrior who awaits the morning light
before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter and fall

Even if we’ve grown used to loneliness
only relying on the light of the moon
We have to fly away with featherless wing
just go foward, just a little further

As the rainclouds break
the wet streets sparkling
Although it brings only darkness
A powerful, powerful light
helps push us to walk on
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Well, this song, from the series 1 litre of tears..everyone says its so touching, but then, i havent watch it yet... then my bro intro me this song.. so far quite nice also la...

hmm...i have shifted to serdang... exact place should be sri kembangan gua? good loo now, no need go out so often, save money and concentrate more on studies...

let me tell you my december schedule...

Dec 3- farewell party for our boss, i involved in one of the performance;
Dec 6, 7 - exam
Dec 7 - 18 - annual leave..
Dec 19 - Revision class
Dec20 - Public holiday
Dec 21, 22 - exam
Dec 23 - Sunday off
Dec 24 - class (i think so)
Dec 25 - Christmas

you can see something like...
"exam-> off -> class -> off -> exam -> off -> class -> off "
so...this is going to be my december schedule...

and ya, previous post i've talk about 13 is a bad luck number right? my new apartment is in 13th floor... wahaha... anyway, i dun think it is bad anymore, should be good luck! cuz i'm staying there!! hehe =P

i should be going back to DUMC still, though at first i was thinking, its too far away for me to go there, but, there is no eng methodist church in serdang that is convenient for me to go, and since i have a junior friend, who is also keen to go to DUMC every sunday, so we will walk together... my best friend, my cg friends and also one of the pastor from my church also ask me to come back to DUMC, i guess all of them have been praying for me all these while.. and God did answer all the prayers! PTL!! (^.^)

Seasons in the sun

2007-11-09T15:18:00.000+08:00

Seasons in the sun lyric
Goodbye to you my trusted friend
We've known each other since we were nine or ten
Together we climbed hills and trees
Learned of love and A B C's
Skinned our hearts and skinned our knees.

Goodbye my friend it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Pretty girls are everywhere
Think of me and I'll be there

We had joy we had fun We had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time

Goodbye Papa please pray for me
I was the black sheep of the family
You tried to teach me right from wrong
Too much wine and too much song
Wonder how I got along.

Goodbye Papa its hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Little children everywhere
When you see them I'll be there.

We had joy we had fun We had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone.
We had joy we had fun We had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone.

Goodbye Michelle my little one
You gave me love and helped me find the sun
And every time that I was down
You would always come around
And get my feet back on the ground.

Goodbye Michelle it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
I wish that we could both be there

We had joy we had fun We had seasons in the sun
But the stars we could reach were just starfish on the beach

We had joy we had fun We had seasons in the sun
But the stars we could reach were just starfish on the beach
We had joy we had fun We had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone
All our lives we had fun We had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time

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There are always many many things that happen between the period where i can find some time to blog...

1. Few days ago i went visit this "rumah kanak-kanak cacat" in pj...that's the place i always pass by but never know the name until the visit day with my classmates... planned to sing this "seasons in the sun" and "kau ilhamku", but then in the end, we sing all kind of songs and within 24 hours, i had a sore throat... this is bad... but i never regret... though till now i'm still on my treatment..

2. the same song sang by Westlife is a bit different from the original singer Terry Jacks... i almost laugh out when i see "starfish on the beach" cuz Westlife's dun have this line, or maybe the lyric that my friend print out to me dun have... hmmm....

3. Kimi Raikkonen won F1 champion! i feel so happy!!!! =D but then i heard that McLaren wanna appeal something, then maybe Hamilton will win... i hope this will not happen...

4. A friend of mine told me that i'm one of the 3 girl friends who sms him to tell him the good news (Kimi won), then he ask me why i like him? and he say my reply is same as the other 2 girls, handsome and cool! Universal answer?!!

5. Alonso stay or leave McLaren? dunno...dun care la...whatever the decision is, it still doesn't make my life happier or sad...

6. Hamilton...do i have anything to say about him? well...i think he is quite leng chai la...becuz he has short hair...i like guys with short hair, look smarter ma... other than that, no comment... wait and see what will happen next season...

7. My college, or rather institute, is gonna shift to serdang so soon... i went to round round the new place at serdang yesterday.. and i found that...OMG, so faraway.. from my hostel to the nearest bustop i need to walk at least 30 minutes i think... wonder how i can go home every weekend.. if i have a car then it's a different story.. oh well... it is only gonna b half a year plus... and i heard the new rules in the new place is more strict! for me, i think kinda like back to national service... haha...wait and see...even if i dun like it, it's only 7months!!

8. Learned one new thing from my fren, "i just dun wanna give up so easily!" so determined and full of compassion! she has been taking music classes in bangsar, then now gonna shift to serdang liao, to come back here is very leceh, she almost wanna stop but then one of my tutor gave her support! try the first month, if really cannot, then only stop for a few months, after grad to continue.. her discipline in controlling her own finance is something i respect her alot, plus her determination of achieving her dreams, i feel that God is so good let me get know her, she gives me lotsa inspiration!

9. My friend recommend me to play o2jam, since i have been hearing bout this game is very nice to play so i decided to try... login and login again and again, i still cant got in... finally dwlded, then whenever i almost start the game, my comp restarted... i think i cant play it on my comp... though i failed to enjoy this game, but one thing i learned of this friend of mine, he is super patience in guiding me step by step to this game... i already gave up but he still trying! thanks nicholas for your patience! this is not the first time, and i really appreciate the friendship we have!

10. Planned to go jogging this morning with my ex-son, but it seems God says i better rest myself since im still not fully recovered from my sore throat and cough...heavy rain this morning and the plan have to be canceled... and i found that he also have bad headache this morning... so both of us better rest la...haha

11. Hmmm...something very very disturbing me happened... long ago... few weeks to a month ago... something happened in my hostel...then me and my roommates were not-so happy with each other...and then somehow we talked again...it seems ok now, but i know deep in our hearts there are always some scars...thank God that all of them are willing to ignore this scar as much as they could to remain good rapport as roommates at least... i guess shifting could help in this better... staying apart then less problem will occur... but my tutor has a different explanation, she say if i hope to stay apart with them, this is only running from the problem, what i should do is to face it... well, i din meant to runaway from it, but since the 4 of us in the room are much better now, i think it is still not consider running away from problem...

12. wondering if i write so much will there be anyone visiting my blog?

13. this is a badluck number...so i shouldn't write anything...

14. this number is also not so good...next!

15. Talking bout life-partner... is he the one? will i like him and love him as long as i could live? i guess only time will tell.. through this relationship i've learn something very important: have faith. i wouldn't know what will happen in the future, nor i will know God's plan, but by having faith in God and knowing that He will always gives us the best is the greatest comfort and courage in life!

16. Planning to jog tomorrow (again), hope it doesn't rain tomorrow morning...

17. So bored! dunno what to write la...

18. ~The End~ Thank you for reading! (^.^)

Faithful

2007-10-15T11:14:00.000+08:00

Faithful lyric
There's distance in the air
And I cannot make it leave
I wave my arms `round about me
And blow with all my might

I cannot sense you close
Though I know you're always here
But the comfort of you near
Is what I long for

CHORUS
When I can't feel you
I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear you
I know you still hear every word I pray
And I want you
More than I want to live another day
And as I wait for you
Maybe I'm made more faithful

All the folly of the past
Though I know it is undone
I still feel the guilty one
Still trying to make it right

So I whisper soft your name
And let it roll around my tongue
Knowing you're the only one who knows me
You know me

CHORUS

Bridge
Show me how I should live this
Show me where I should walk
I count this world as loss to me
You are all I want
You are all I want
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This song sang by Brooke Fraser, my best friend send all the songs in her latest album Albertine to me and i find this song very meaningful...

this is a love song, to whoever it is; but for me, it would be more like a love song singing just for God and Him alone...

"...When I can't feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same, When I can't hear you, I know you still hear every word I pray...The comfort of you near is what i long for..."

Sometimes, God may be silence...cant sense, cant feel, cant hear Him at all... but i know, You are here with me always and never leaves me alone, you still listening to all my cries and also praises...and when You're quiet, i know You want me to learn something, You want me to be more sensitive, to be more patience...and as i wait for You, maybe i'm made more faithful to You...

i really dunno what to write anymore, since the lyrics described my heart well enough... there are times when i really sense God, those days i feel very joyful and i can have a sense of peace even though i'm facing a problem... but there are also times when i cant feel Him at all, i feel like why everything just going out of my way?? even a small problem can cause so much trouble, to me and also the people around me...but these are days where we need to learn to be still and knowing God is with us, He kept silent becuz He wants to know how strong it is our relationship with Him..do we know Him well enough? He kept silent cuz He already taught us during the days when we can feel and sense and hear Him, and now is the time where we need to apply what we have learn...and at the same time, He wants to know, how faithful are we.. when He is silent, do we loose our hearts and go for idols? or do we be still and read His Words for guidance?

God knows us well, when He is silent, He aspect us to apply what we've learn... He won't leave you alone till you drown, He is always there to watch us and ready to pull us through anytime...

My Dearest, Thank You! (^.^)

色 | 戒

2007-10-07T19:15:00.000+08:00

《色 | 戒》好看，如果没有被cut的话，更好看！

我是看了报纸的介绍，加上朋友说很想看，所以就买票踏进戏院。
一开始知道关于《色 | 戒》的是，有人说像A片，主角全裸上阵。心想，李安竟然拍A片？！可是看了《色 | 戒》的报道，觉得李安想带出的, 是很有艺术味道的性爱，而且花了很大笔费用，去建筑当时的上海，听说还是真材实料！真的很想去看到底有多真, 还有想看看那场床戏有多震撼！当然, 床戏有多震撼就看不到了，不过，真的真的很好看! 很多情感交集着，让我的心情一直徘徊在王佳芝身上好几天。

“3年前你可以的，为什么不？” 一句话，有多少心痛，失望，无奈… 我感到你对我的爱，可为什么你，不但什么行动都没有，而且还把我推向另一个男人？你不行动，我不知道你爱不爱我，甚至我怀疑你的爱。既然你把我送到另一个男人的身边，他对我也不错，我不知不觉，爱他比爱你更深、爱到不能自拔；享受他给我的性与宠爱。为了这一切，我宁愿放弃为国报仇、宁愿违背我们的约定、宁愿出卖你！顶着这角色去演这没有回头的话剧，融入角色、不是演麦太太而是真正的麦太太；当易先生的情妇、去享受被爱的刺激，这一切只当作我演戏的酬劳。

到最后，爱没有对错，爱是一种经验。爱，也很伟大，令人愿意放弃很多：邝裕民为了爱国放弃了王佳芝，甚至把她给牺牲了；易先生爱麦太太，眼尖的他在看见许多埋伏时，选择去相信他爱的这个女人，放弃去追查她的身世；王佳芝爱易先生，放弃去报仇，就算出卖了自己的身份也要挽救他的生命。

我不晓得，我会不会爱得如此的深…

一千个世纪

2007-08-04T15:54:00.000+08:00

一千个世纪 Lyric

当时地球还年轻我们诞生荒凉大海里
演化到了寒武纪我们长出脊椎和勇气
某天我们开始踩出脚印
学会双手拥抱学会爱情
长出人类的心

啊啊我要和你一起走过一千个世纪
每次诞生我都要与你相遇每次轮回都为你

当时你我都野性我们学会用火跟穴居
后来帝国正崛起我们战乱之中更相依

某天我们突然回忆过去
我们只是两段平凡基因
却爱的很美丽

啊啊我要和你一起走过一千个世纪
下一个我也许是人或蚂蚁每次轮回都是为你

在一起在一起在一起

直到文明又毁灭一千世纪后的第一天
伊甸园里肩并肩我们笑看太阳也熄灭

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OMG!!! so long din update liao... busy and lazy... wahaha
well well... Mayday's new song, Born to Love album... i always love Mayday...
i dun really believe in 轮回 but i am born to this world for a purpose, and i always believe that i am born for someone!

一千个世纪 a thousand century... so many years... we will spend around 1 century on earth and the rest in heaven then... hehehe... really looking forward for it.. =p

This is the year of Transition... it seems like i always talk bout this...
Erm... well... it is so true especially coming to the end of the year...

first of all... my college is shifting by end of this year... the hospital wanna rebuild the old block, and since my college occupied one floor of the old block, we have to move! another 3 - 4 months from now i'll be out of bangsar... definitely not any where at bangsar... the place is still yet to be decided... i hope it wun be too far away... its good that i have a very nice boss! he will choose a place which is safe for us...he says saftey first! i believe he will choose the best for us! he is a very caring person, no wonder is the our boss! hehe...

and then, by end of this year... i am consider a senior in my college... and as the most senior group of students in my college, tutors' expectation towards us is very high... so gonna be very stressful... aiks...

another thing is that... DUMC, is shifting to Dream Center this year... i just went for the DC clean up day... contribute a little for my church... hehe... well... all the "transition" started with this church...

what else? erm... concerning whether will i still be single or not... better ask God this question... He has a plan for me, lets wait and see... if the time is right... then... you will know when is it la... heheehe

but...all the things that gonna be changed that i have listed, still remain the same... not change yet... haha... i am still not the most senior, DUMC still at sea park, my college is still at bangsar and i am still single... hahaha...
at the end of the year you will see everything is changed! but i believe change for a better one!

yea...change is for better... everyone changes... so am i...
transition... means leaving the old one and entering the new one... how well is the entering depends on how well you leave..

i guess you know what i mean by this... love all of you... =)

April 2007 fool

2007-04-01T18:22:00.000+08:00

what a day..i came back on thursday night..later i have to go back to hostel (again)..
today's april fool..so far still nothing happened to me nor i did anything to my friend (yet)

erm..did anyone know that i am in love recently?
well..hehe..the person is Kimi Raikkonen..
(friends: well..we ALL know this..not only recently, but have been in love with him for at least 6 years...)
wah..6 years edi ar? see..this shows that i am a very loyal person..
(friends: ya right *sweat drops*)
hmm..this year Kimi is in Ferrari..a year of transition for him..
(friends: "year of transition" sounds familiar...)
yup yup..2007 is a year of transition..you must have heard it before in DUMC..
year of 2007, i will be turning 19 to 20..
in this year i will be completing sem4 and sem5, which is very vital, since sem6 will be learning management only..
and i think..i've changed a little..perhaps alot..

one of my friend say..if i am in doubt for choices of life..means.. i am growing..
discipline also part of growing up..

to buy or not to buy something..
depends on your budget..ya..i dun have the budget for it now..
but i really, really like it..
i want it..
if i dun buy now
i might not have the chance again
so..
to buy or not to buy?
doubting..means growing..
think of the future..
if i buy now..i will have to starve for few days end of the month..
so discipline comes..dun buy!
huhuhu..i like it so much..
dun buy means dun buy..cannot means cannot!!
alright..i will just say bye..
think back..if i bought it..doesn't really make any different in my life..

to start or not to start with someone..
same concept..
doubt still..
means i am growing...?
my best friend say..i dun fall in love but i grow in love..
yup..i agree..
so..to start or not to start..
this is different from buying something..
buy or dun buy may make only slight difference in my life..
but this will be a big issue..
perhaps 50 years later this isn't big for me anymore..
but for now..it is..
no one is responding..until today..
only the Lord knows everything..
i thought i wanna tell someone something one day..
but the Lord denied my plan..
maybe next time..
i dun wanna lose any friends becuz of this..
friendship are just too precious..
fragile at times too..
i just hope Lord will give me to go thru all these..
pray to the Lord..
the only thing i can do..

Thank you

2007-02-20T18:22:00.000+08:00

Thank You Lyric

I dreamed I went to heaven
And you were there with me
We walked upon the streets of gold
Beside the crystal sea
We heard the angels singing
Then someone called your name
You turned and saw this young man
And he was smiling as he came

And he said friend you may not know me now
And then he said but wait
You used to teach my Sunday School
When I was only eight
And every week you would say a prayer
Before the class would start

And one day when you said that prayer
I asked Jesus in my heart

CHORUS
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am a life that was changed
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am so glad you gave

Then another man stood before you
And said remember the time
A missionary came to your church
And his pictures made you cry
You didn't have much money
But you gave it anyway
Jesus took the gift you gave

And that's why I'm here today

CHORUS (repeat)

One by one they came
Far as the eyes could see
Each life somehow touched
By your generosity
Little things that you had done
Sacrifices made

Unnoticed on the earth
In heaven now proclaimed

And I know that up in heaven
You're not supposed to cry
But I am almost sure
There were tears in your eyes
As Jesus took your hand
And you stood before the Lord

He said, my child look around you
For great is your reward

CHORUS (repeat)

I am so glad you gave
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shannon sent me this song...
really nice...
should try listening to it... =)

my LiFe

2007-02-19T22:51:00.000+08:00

Dear friends,

sorry for not updating my blog for such a long time..
a few times, i tot i wanna put something in my blog,
but in the end i didn't..
getting more things to do when i'm online..
perhaps..
or i'm just too slow to type chinese characters..
i hope i can update it in chinese,
cuz i think i can express myself better..
you think?

about one month ago,
my friend passed away..
2 days later,
my colleague's mom passed away..
life is so, so fragile..
my friend, although i dun see him often,
or stay in touch always..
but it's still hurt to see him like this..
dunno when,
the person might be me..
anything might just happen to me
in the very next minute..
i wept as i'm hugging my colleague who is crying..
anything might just happen to my parents
in the very next minute..
the friends i met today,
might be the last time i see them in life..
i can't afford to loose any of my beloved!
i might cry, i might not..
but for sure..
my heart will cry!
"broken hearts, broken life, He will take'em all.."
Oh Lord, bring peace..

in semester 4 already..
as usual..busy..
and this is without any position in council..
can't imagine what's gonna happen
if i am selected again..
tutor say,
"you have to read at least 4 books for each subject"
i am trying my very best..
tutor say,
"you have to set your goal higher!
85% MCQ, 80% MEQ, 90% OSCE"
erm...o..k.. ..
let's wait and see..
my goal is only 80% MCQ, 75% MEQ, 80% OSCE..
wow...so low..
you think?

i am not in council now..
but i still hear something like...
"council member, you should be role model to the others!"
(excuse me..i am not!)
"you are not student council mer? i tot you are?"
(no, my dear..)
"how come you are not in council?"
(how i know? better not to be..)
and so...
am i really high profile when i was a council member?
humble, sister, humble..

my best friend gave me a growth journal..
and so..
i started to commit myself
in reading the bible everyday..
so that i can finish it in a year..
learning to prioritize
God, studies, friends, family, life..
now,
tiredness and sleepiness is the greatest devil
that i have to overcome!
and also the controling mind
that keep on telling me
"you have so much things to do!!"
this is what you call LiFe..
pray for me my dear..
let me have the passion to live this life!

i miss my friends..
all girls are now so pretty..
and guys are so handsome..
and the most happy thing is...
they are my friends!!!!
hehehehe...
so glad to have them...
but of cuz la..not becuz of that..
it's becuz after so long..
they still treat me the same..
and they still remember me..
this is the most important thing!

LiFe...
omg..haven't talk bout cny yet!
nvm la..
almost the same..
everyone also say cny is more and more boring,
routine..nothing special..no feel at all..
agree?
you have to..no choice!
cuz it's the truth...
hehehe..

well well well...
thank you my dear friends
for spending time to read this..
thank you again all my dearest,
for being my friend!
thank God for sending all of you to me
to accompany me in my life,
esp during the time of need i see your hands!
how wonderful it is that you are my friend!
may the Lord bless you more and more..
and we shall meet again,
even each of us with our grandchildren..
friendship forever!

and i shall say..
i wasn't typing poem..
get me right,
(not left..)
i am just writing it this way
so that its easier for you to read...
anyway..i know you dun mind..
hehehehe...
that's why we are friends! =D

with love..

Ki Ni Naru Aitsu , This girl on my mind..

2007-01-21T13:29:00.001+08:00

Ki Ni Naru Aitsu

Doko made mo tsuzuku
aoi sora massugu miagate
Fukinukeru kaze wo suikonde
saka wo kakete'ku

Itsumo yori MAJI na hyoujou wo
tooku kara nirami-nagara
Nande darou? WAKE mo naku
iji ni natte shimau

Ki ni naru AITSU, fushigi na AITSU,
koko de jitto shite irarenai
Magari-kado de wa, sou,
nani ka okorisou de kakedasu yo

Ki ni naru yokan, fushigi na yokan,
yume de mita you na munasawagi
Yokan dekinai mainichi massugu mitsumete
AITSU ni makenai yo

ORENJI no kumo wo oi-kakete
anna ni isoide
Omoikiri nanka ni tsumazuite
hade ni koronda

Itsudatte AITSU no KOTO nante
KANKEE nanka nai'n dakara
ASUFARUTO ketobashite
kaeri-michi wo isogu

Ki ni naru AITSU, fushigi na AITSU,
kyou mo yokome de CHEKKU shite...
Shiranai-uchi ni, sou,
naze ka AITSU no PEESU hamatte'ru

Ki ni naru yokan, fushigi na yokan,
nani ka hajimaru munasawagi
donna toki de mo yuzurenai
risou ga aru kara
Dare ni mo makenai yo

Ki ni naru AITSU, fushigi na AITSU,
koko de jitto shite irarenai
Sono mune no oku, sou,
himeta HONTO no chikara shiritakute...

Ki ni naru yokan, fushigi na yokan,
maru de mirai wa meiro da ne
Yume wo shikkari kono te ni
tsukameru toki made
Jibun ni makenai

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I look straight up at
the neverending blue sky
I inhale the passing breeze
and run (down) the hill

While glaring at your unusually
serious expression from afar
Why is this? Without a reason,
I become completely obstinate

This girl on my mind, this mysterious girl
-- I can't just stand here quietly
Around the corner, when it seems like something
is about to happen, I break into a run.

This anxious presentiment, this mysterious presentiment
-- an uneasiness like that seen in a dream
I can't have this anxiety everyday,
I stare straight ahead
I won't lose to her

I chase after orange clouds
in such a hurry
With all I strength I trip over something
and fall over in a showy manner

Because I've never had a connection
or anything related to that person
I kick off the asphalt,
hurrying on the way home

This girl on my mind, this mysterious girl
-- even today, I give a side-glance check...
Without realizing it, for some reason
I fall into her pace.

This anxious presentiment, this mysterious presentiment
-- this uneasiness that something is beginning
Because I have ideals that
I won't give up no matter what
I won't lose to anyone

This girl on my mind, this mysterious girl
-- I can't just stand here quietly
I want to know the real power
that is hidden deep in my (your) heart...

This anxious presentiment, this mysterious presentiment
-- the future is like a labyrinth
Until the time when I can firmly grasp
this dream in these hands
I won't give up on myself

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Tadadada~ this is the song i'm loving it!! hehe...
i am gonna be 20 this year.. and i mean i am still 19 plus only for now..hehe..a year of transition?
by end of this year all the syllabus should be finished and sem6 is only management..
feeling some big responsibility on my shoulders now..
hoping for a better one.. (^.^)

I surrender to you

2007-01-01T14:50:00.001+08:00

I surrender to you Lyric

Lord, you live in me
You're my best friend
You're the King of kings
The beginning and end
Now that you have my eyes
I see your spirit inside of me

All that I am is for you
My Savior
I live by your word
And surrender to you
Here where I stand in this moment father
My spirit has been renewed
I surrender to you

You hold the key to my life
In your loving hand
Always by my side
I offer all that I am
So glad I realize
You are the truth and the light
In my life

Everything I need I find in you
I believe your promises are true
I will lift my burdens up to you
Your loving grace will see me through

I surrender to you

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Happy New Year!! this starting of the year is very meaningful to me..i went countdown in church! this is the very first year i celebrate new year in church! and i thank God that i have this opportunity! I hope this year i will be faithful to him and trust in him in all the situations and i shall depend on him in everything that i do! and this indeed a brand new year for me! and i thank God for everything he has done for me last year! everything i need i find in you and i believe your promises are true! 2007 will be a great year with him walk with me all the way thru! Amen!

幸福

2006-12-28T18:22:00.000+08:00

幸福Lyric
幸福不是每一天都有
错过以后要等很久很久
别让你的快乐在我怀中变成泡沫

至少我们依然是朋友
如果我不适合握你的手
带着我的祝福好好的过
藏起心痛我想我还能忍受这点寂寞
用最沉默的温柔微笑对你挥挥手

If you cry 我会明白
If you smile 我也会温暖
走累了 if you don’t mind
和我坐下来看看天的蓝
If you cry 还有我在
If you try 陪你等待
你永远不会孤单
有个人只为了你存在

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well..have been so worried bout something gonna happen recently... i tot i wanna tell something to my parents before christmas..but i did it on the christmas day...a liltle bit late but at least i did it at last...

before that really scared that 幸福 will just slip away if i tell...so far still ok la...like nothing much changed also...but dunno what will happen if my grandma and my relatives know bout it...

haihz...decisions are hard...i am glad i made one finally...like the lyrics.. 幸福不是每一天都有错过以后要等很久很久... 幸福 might just stay away from me for some times after the decision made.. but i believe 有个人只为了你存在..so 你永远不会孤单...really hope that in everytime whether i am up or down, happy or sad, he will be with me forever...really cant imagine how to live without him.. 忍受这点寂寞...i hope there will be always someone will tell me 还有我在..let pray that this gonna be true..love you forever..(^.^)

花

2006-12-10T18:22:00.000+08:00

花Lyric
就狂舞如果吹狂风　就等待放晴的天空
如果雨越下越大　节奏就更猛

当风雨　都过去　迎着风　看天空
不放弃　才能够　有感动
这一生　这一次　为自己　抬起头
至少要　骄傲的　盛开过

天地的善变我不怕　人间的混乱却不懂
让我最灿烂的笑　换和平天空

当风雨　都过去　迎着风　看天空
不放弃　才能够　有感动
这一生　这一次　为自己　抬起头
至少要　骄傲的　盛开过

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Have been a very complicated week..
or perhaps weeks..

i feel kinda happy recently..
although i failed my exam (modified essay questions), i got 59..
and the passing mark is 60...
haha..dun worry, i am not the only one..

and then becuz i failed my exam i disappoint my tutors and also parents..
haihz..feeling so bad over this..

and i joined cg recently..
feeling so bad cuz have to break one of the college rule..
then i successfully got the permission from my tutor..
then i feel very happy..

but then now i need another one..
feeling so complicated..
tell?
or not to tell?
or who should i tell first?
omg..i am getting crazy..

i think i am in love with someone..
recently..
guess who?
haha..ask me personally if you wanna know..

anyway..
i have to concentrate on my resit paper first..
which is on the 18 dec..
and my LAN subjects exam is on 20 dec..
pray for me that i can pass all these exams..

now for those who know me i wanna ask you a question:
did i change? why do you think so?

feel free to leave any comments..
thank you very much for your time..

Love you all so much (^.^)

你和我(You And Me)

2006-11-05T11:07:00.000+08:00

你和我 Lyric

親愛的聽眾朋友我是你的代班DJ
想找你陪我一起聊聊這世界
整天的工作重覆疲憊的畫面
麻木你的感覺
耳邊才剛剛聽到仇恨要靠理智解決
謾罵和子彈卻在那頭滿天飛
學了一輩子的愛沒勇氣說出來
彌補那些傷害

你和我在世界同一座擂台
別懦弱拿出勇氣對待
讓眼淚流出來不是因為失敗
幸福那個夢就看你和我
你和我你和我

美麗的主播說的都不是美麗的新聞
彩色的報紙能讓鮮血更逼真
當美麗播報的全是絕望的氣氛
誰該負點責任
那麼多的人只敢窩在網路裡面生存
慢慢都忘記電腦螢幕沒靈魂
科技的發達讓人的距離被拉開
再也拉不回來

你和我在世界同一座擂台
別懦弱拿出勇氣對待
讓眼淚流出來不是因為失敗
幸福那個夢就看你和我
你和我你和我你和我 (我們做得到yeah)

你和我也沒什麼不一樣該學習地球如何分享
為什麼我們會忘記怎麼擁有簡單的大愛

that's right,
你和我
我們都要做的更好
你和我在世界同一座擂台
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well...exam soon...the one and only concentration is EXAM!!!
haihz...
read a friend's blog...Martin's, lotsa Love stuff over there...lotsa meaningful, lovely verse over there...wahaha...anyone interested can go visit visit la... martin's was my classmate, but he forgot me edi!!! hmmm...nvm..we can always make friends again (^.^)

you and me...i think this is a very meaningful song... you and me can make our life better!
well...try our best! we can always start from small small little things...

eg: be faithful to your own God, with Him impossible is nothing;

eg: do not liter, dispose your rubbish at proper place and keep the environment clean;

eg: don't smoke, dun make our air even more polluted, everyone does not want to die due to lung cancer, cancer is one of the most suffering disease, dun ever let you and your love one experience it;

eg: always put yourself at other people shoes, dun blame others too much and instead understand them, the world would be more lovely if we kind to the people around us;

eg: help others, help other not because you wanna get "pahala" or blessing or fame or anything, but help other just simply because you are already so much luckier than the others, help other because you've already got alot more than others that god had given to you;

eg: love yourself. be responsible of yourself, take care of yourself properly so that your love ones would not get worried, guard your attitute so that your love ones will be proud of you;

eg: Smile always! smile is infectious, smile to the others, whether you know them anot, and you will see the world smiling to you;

believe that we can make our life better!
Love is the greatest power!
even God has love!

you know you can do it, dun be afraid or step back!
you can do it!
let you and me to take the first step and guide the others to do so...

and so... let us do our best! pray for me so that i would pass my exam... (^.^)

《a letter to him...》续集

2006-10-22T12:12:00.000+08:00

Heart Lyric
Di sini kau dan aku
Terbiasa bersama
Menjalani kasih sayang
Bahagia ku denganmu

Pernahkah kau menguntai
Hari paling indah
Ku ukir nama kita berdua
Di sini surga kita

Bila kita mencintai yang lain
Mungkinkah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin,
tak akan pernah
Sayangku akan hilang...

If we love somebody Could we be this strong
I will fight to win Our love will conquer all
I wouldn't risk my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart
My heart..

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《一封给他的信》有了续集…原本以为一切都结束了，想不到在差不多一个多月以前又开始了。将近一年没有联络，一开始很惊讶，后来却觉得我们之间的友情进步了很多。以前没什么聊天，现在确很多话。了解也更深了…

感觉很复杂，我唯有能作的是坦白。
我问他我们之间到底是什么感情，是友情，或更多？
他说他想要更多，担很怕不能给我快乐…
我说我怕更进一步因为怕因而失去一位朋友。
他说喜欢一个人没有所谓的对或错，对他而言这是一个经验…
我说不如让上帝决定吧。
他说OK…

看了《HEART》这部Indon戏，一直看，一直想…为什么不是Rachel？
Ku ukir nama kita berdua,
di sini suga kita, terbiasa bersama,
bahagia ku dengan mu,
bila kita mencintai yang lain…
我跟他也曾经刻过我们的名字，有过我们的美好回忆。
Rachel 也是。
但是为什么 Fahrel 却爱上 Luna ？
是不是 "terbiasa bersama" 所以没有感觉？
我只希望我不会踏上 Rachel 的路，我没有那么伟大…

Dear God

2006-07-17T06:22:00.000+08:00

刚刚看完六点半的新闻
那悲剧又重演
有个妈妈拿着儿子的相片
期盼他会出现

看不下那画面
我转过头却开始流泪
是惩罚是考验
还要有多少的心碎

爱爱在这个世界上爱已被忘记
谁都不相信谁都不相信相信爱

哎哎真理和公平都变成了笑话
我不愿意住在这样的城市里

话题都围绕在腥色暴力
有八卦没想法
计算逃避人人都在玩游戏
没有钱没人理你

我心里很愤怒只能冷酷让自己麻木
拿生命做赌注这些疯狂还要多久

爱爱在这个世界上有没有意义
没有人在乎没有人在乎没有爱

哎哎我真的很想要开口骂脏话
不是我的错不是我的错别怪我

Dear God 为什么你闭上眼不想想办法
装做看不见装做看不见告诉我

哎哎告诉我把爱找回来的方法
因为我无法离开这个鬼地方 (我没有办法离开 no no)
这个鬼地方 (这个鬼地方) 它还是我的家

刚刚看完远方传来的消息
像恶梦在继续给点力量让自己能活下去
Dear God 你在哪里
Na na na....wo wo wo...yeah yeah yeah...

＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝
也许我忙，才会忘了问候你；又或许我累，才会少了与你联络。但在我心中从没少了你这位朋友！这通信息就是要告诉你：我记得你，不只现在，以后也是。～原森～

其实，我一直知道，大人们的生活跟小孩的生活有着天壤只别，这是我一直不想长大的原因。现在半踏入社会，还未正式踏入社会，就发现，单纯地“知道”和真正地“体验”，后者的印象会更加深刻，更加地彻底改变你的思想与观念，然后让你脸上的笑容一年比一年少。再加上如果不懂得适当地处理这样的情绪，患忧郁症与自杀的人数也相对地一天比一天多。这样的社会是大家所希望的吗？

感谢永坚与杰仁的回复，至少让我在这无奈的世界找会朋友的关怀。也谢谢原森简讯，让我知道，无情的社会多了一个会关心别人的你。也是你让我有勇气与不绝望地继续我的学业。至少至少，我的世界里，我还有很多让我继续奋斗的理由。我还有家人，朋友，和为了一杯雪糕的诺言。

Amarantine, everlasting

2006-06-19T06:22:00.000+08:00

Amarantine by Enya
You know when you gave your love away
It opens your heart, everything is new
And you know time will always find a way
To let your heart believe it's true

You know love is everything you say
A whisper, a word, promises you give
You feel it in the heartbeat of the day
You know this is the way love is

Amarantine
Amarantine
Amarantine
Love is, love is, love

You know love may sometimes make you cry
So let the tears go they will flow away
For you know love will always let you fly
How far a heart can fly away

Amarantine
Amarantine
Amarantine
Love is, love is, love

You know when love's shining in your eyes
It may be the stars falling from above
And you know love is with you when you rise
For night and day belong to love
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a very nice song by enya...it was last time one of my best friend wern ai who introduce her song to me..when i first listen to her song it was thru telephone, where my friend play it on the other side of the phone, that was terrible..like ghost song..(no offence), but then when i listen it again i found it very nice..and now i love her songs so much!! and this is her latest album i bought yesterday..

well..about yesterday..i went to timesquare with 周杰伦 (jay chao's chinese name), well..he say this is his chinese name..i still cannot believe it although he insist that it is true..he teman me walk around timeaquare...hahah..indeed we walked round and round..haha...i actually went there just to fix my specs and buy amarantine...i have got nothing to buy..so just walking here and there and chit chatiing...well..this guy quite nice loo..but then..got strong inflence by Mr.Raj and Mr.Akmarul...anything that come out from their mouth can only trust 50%...they joke alot...sometimes good also loo not so stress working ma...haha...and then...thank you very much Mr.Quah for your birthday present!! so surprise ler..my birthday belum sampai also...thank you thank you!!!!

hmm...li ying ask me not to put all my lyrics only and i should write more bout my life since the blog name is FONG's LiFe...trying to...haha..oh ya...thank you my dear friend from australia who called me on saturday night! quite unbelievable to hear your voice even though you are 1 sea apart..haha..thank you so much to take this effort!! hmm...wel...dun really miss you so much since both of us are still email-ing almost every week...but i do appreciate it cuz we trying our best to take care our friendship! thank you dear!! and i also enjoy reading your blog..although may not have the time to read every post YET but i will try to..

alot of things in my life has changed...i dunno how much i have changed or did i really changed..but somehow i can feel it..well..this is the learning process..

last week i had my special posting..really really nice and i enjoy it very much!!! i went to cath lab see doctors doing angiogram, PTCA: went to Litho see how they use machine to break the kidney stone; went to endoscope to observe OGDS, colonoscopy, dilating of the oesophagus and also bronchoscopy; went to haemodialysis to see the whole process of it; went to Xray to see how doctors do ultrasound and aspiration, and to have fun and also to get know people who are so crazy like raj, akmarul and quah; went to physio to join the antenatal excercise...haha..not yet pregnant but then just do together fr soe excercise...and so...this was last week...this week...today tonight..me night shift...so i am going back to hostel later...

take care all my friends! hope our friendships will be amarantine!!

想念的都是你

2006-06-04T11:56:00.000+08:00

都是你Lyric
谁改变了我的世界
没有方向没有日夜
我看着天这一刻在想你
是否会对我一样思念

你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前

想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明

你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前

想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明

我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明

这是我对你爱的累积

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想念你…希望我们仍然是朋友。

只是，我觉得我们的友情变质了。我们不再坦白，我们不再联络。

想念你，如果你还想念我；忘了你，如果你也忘了我。

爱情来得快，去得也快。
倒不如友情来得坚强，经得起时间的考验，也能活得更快乐。

约定

2006-05-18T11:22:00.000+08:00

约定Lyric
说好的三年不见面用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验我们的约定

就这样三年又过了我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了

就这样三年又过了我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了

你会记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

你会记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
听着风我也笑了
他一定会告诉你的我更爱你了
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《约定》，我相信很多人都会背这歌词了…蛮好听的。

约定了，等你到20岁。
虽然现在就算我没有遵守诺言，也没关系，因为真的没有理由再为你等待，我们只能是朋友。
只是，不知为何，我还想等到 2 0 岁。
可能为了“约定”二字。单纯地为了这两个字。
这是一个承诺，你对主的承诺，我对我的承诺。
到时候，我未必像《约定》一样比以前更爱你，但至少友谊会更深！
肯定的是，我们要一辈子都幸福！

就这样，让我们等待到明年的夏天吧！

櫻阪 / 你快不快乐

2006-05-15T18:22:00.000+08:00

櫻阪 Lyric
君よずっと幸せに風にそっと歌うよ

愛は今も愛のままで

硥sる木漏れ日薰る悲しみに似た薄紅色

君がいた鯁yしていた

君じゃなきゃダメなのに

ひとつになれず

愛と知っていたのに春はやってくるのに

夢は今も夢のままで

頰にくちづけ染筒篟鬷hたいn持ちでいっぱいだった

この街でずっとふたりて

無邪nすぎた約束淚に饒vる

愛と知っていたのに花はそっとFくのに

君は今も君のままで

逢えないけど季節は饒vるけど愛しき人

君だけがわか

憧れを追いかけて

僕は生きるよ

愛と知っていたのに春はやってくるのに

夢は今も夢のままで

君よずっと幸せに風にそっと歌うよ

愛は今も愛のままで

==

櫻阪

希望你永遠都幸福　隨著風我輕輕哼唱

對你的愛　還是沒變

櫻花數在空中搖擺　花相四溢的櫻阪

與悲傷的顏色相同　淺淺的粉紅色

有你在身邊　我們相戀

無法想像失去你　卻已分離

我明白這就是愛情

春天即將來臨　心中的夢　未曾實現

在臉頰上留下吻　染紅了的櫻阪

腦海中滿是想擁你入懷的? 在這個城市中我們永遠不分離

這個承諾太過天真　終究變成了眼淚

我明白這就是愛情　櫻花悄悄綻放

熟悉的你　依然如昔

雖然不在相見　雖然季節會改變

我明白這就是愛情　春天即將來臨

心中的夢　未曾實現

希望你永遠都幸福　隨著風我輕輕哼唱

對你的愛　還是沒變
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你快不快乐Lyric

我只想知道你快不快乐有没有遇见更懂你的人
ooh-ya- 闭上眼风在吹
又是这个季节

偶然经过那条街熟悉的气味令人怀念
也许只有我的心比当时老一点
错过的从前能不能回头说抱歉
这么些年我一直还记得
那些欠你的誓言

我只想知道你快不快乐有没有遇见更懂你的人
ooh-ya- 阳光下好想念
你微笑的眼神

选好旅行的地点才想起那是你的心愿
不知不觉我始终把你的话
放在我心里面
错过的从前我好想对你说抱歉
爱过的人还住在记忆中
一直没有说再见

爱恨都已不再
嗯--- 我只是不能不关心你
我只是想听你的声音

错过的从前我好想对你说抱歉
爱过的人还住在记忆中
一直没有说再见

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两首不同的歌，相同的音乐。真的好想好想听福山雅治唱的《櫻阪》，虽然不明白歌词，也从来没有真正地去读翻译，但音乐真的很优美。有机会大家也不妨听一听吧！如果你有这首歌麻烦你send给我吧！嘻嘻…

第一次用火狐 update blog, 感觉怪怪的…有点不习惯。不过应该没什么问题呱？总之，感谢你还支持我的 blog！由于没时间的关系很少写新的 update，不过也非常感激你还上网看我的网站… 谢谢哦！＝)

永远爱你们！＝D

明天会更好

2006-05-01T11:46:00.000+08:00

明天会更好 Lyric
轻轻敲醒沉睡的心灵慢慢张开你的眼睛
看看忙碌的世界是否依然孤独的转个不停
春风不解风情吹动少年的心
让昨日脸上的泪痕随记忆风干了

抬头寻找天空的翅膀候鸟出现它的影迹
带来远处的饥荒无情的战火依然存在的消息
玉山白雪飘零燃烧少年的心
使真情溶化成音符倾诉遥远的祝福

唱出你的热情伸出你的双手
让我拥抱着你的梦让我拥有你真心的面孔
让我们的笑容充满着青春的骄傲
为明天献出虔诚的祈祷

谁能不顾自己的家园抛开记忆中的童年
谁能忍心看那昨日的忧愁带走我们的笑容
青春不解红尘胭脂沾染了灰
让久违不见的泪水滋润了你的面容

唱出你的热情伸出你的双手
让我拥抱着你的梦让我拥有你真心的面孔
让我们的笑容充满着青春的骄傲
为明天献出虔诚的祈祷

轻轻敲醒沉睡的心灵慢慢张开你的眼睛
看看忙碌的世界是否依然孤独的转个不停
日出唤醒清晨大地光彩重生
让和风拂出的音响谱成生命的乐章

唱出你的热情伸出你的双手
让我拥抱着你的梦让我拥有你真心的面孔
让我们的笑容充满着青春的骄傲
让我们期待着明天会更好
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好久没有 update 了…在这段期间，很多事情发生了，可以说是有生以来活到这么大最复杂的一段时间。而且看起来还是会这样地复杂下去…不过呢，不要紧，因为大家都相信明天会更好！

萍聚

2006-03-11T14:17:00.000+08:00

萍聚 Lyric
别管以后将如何结束
至少我们曾经相聚过
不必费心地彼此约束
更不需要言语的承诺
只要我们曾经拥有过
对你我来讲已经足够
人的一生有许多回忆
只要你的心里有个我
＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝
千言万语已在歌词里，不用多说。
我的朋友们…要保持联络喔！

新年

2006-02-01T18:22:00.000+08:00

恭喜恭喜 Lyric
每条大街小巷，每个人的嘴里
见面第一句话，就是恭喜恭喜
恭喜恭喜恭喜你呀，恭喜恭喜恭喜你

冬天已到尽头，真是好的消息
温暖的春风，就要吹醒大地恭
喜恭喜恭喜你呀，恭喜恭喜恭喜你

皓皓冰雪融解，眼看梅花吐蕊
漫漫长夜过去，听到一声鸡啼
恭喜恭喜恭喜你呀，恭喜恭喜恭喜你

经过多少困难，历尽多少磨练
多少心儿盼望，盼望春的消息
恭喜恭喜恭喜你呀，恭喜恭喜恭喜你
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1。新年了，应该登一些新年歌。这首歌我相信没有多少个人知道它的所有歌词。

2。新年，新的愿望，新的开始，新的学期，新的挑战，新的心情…和不变的原则与承诺…
如果说新年总是应该开心，那么至少今年是特别的。当冬天已到尽头、春风吹醒大地的时候，除了开心，就是失落，而且正在准备失望和伤心…我的朋友要走了。
我会很想念他…
我原本的打算是要等他回来，而且到现在也打算等他回来，只是那等待的心情有些改变。一开始我想等他5年回来再算，而且是真的真的只想等他回来；现在的我，虽然说要等他回来，只是如果5年之内各自有对象的话就可以中断不等…5年的等待心情，很容易就随着身边的环境而改变。我对你没有信心，我也对自己没有信心，不过至少你还有让我继续等待的理由！正如我说过的：因为你值得！

3。突然我很喜欢我的表哥…原来我的表哥也是工程师。表哥你知道吗？原来我喜欢的那一位朋友正要到国外读你这一行。可能正因为这样，每当你说起你的工作和兴趣我都很留心地听。得空再讲多些给我了解了解吧！＝p

4。看了《野蛮秘策/My kungfu Sweet Heart》，好好笑，只是好像短了些…
如果你是我的缘分，我会爱你一辈子！如果不是的话，那就只好只做朋友咯…嘻嘻＝P

5。表哥请我吃雪糕，讲真咯，我不知道价钱。我跟他道谢，他跟我说，晤相关，俾心机读书啊。后来才知道雪糕很贵，突然好难过…下定决心：为了这杯雪糕，要好好念书！(如果你突然觉得我变懒了记得提醒我哦！)

6。为了雪糕要好好念书？！我忽然觉得自己疯了… 好矛盾啊！！！！

7。今天逛 KLCC ，买了《五月之恋》小说，真的觉得很疯，那么贵都买？！只是不晓得为什么，突然因为想念他，而很想读一本很感动的爱情小说。其实我很想买吴若权的小说，书名好像是什么爱你什么的，唉我都忘了，总之有那两个字就对了。很想买的原因是这本书被规为最感动的爱情小说，只是书实在有点厚，怕读不完，所以买了暗恋了好久的五月之恋。

8。我很想和你看一场电影，作为我和你的回忆；
好想在你走之前和你深深地拥抱，完成我的心愿。
好想好想，和你在一起…

9。我要感谢新加坡的叔叔和婶婶，因为你们给了我比谁都幸福的新年！！

10。堂堂表哥、糖糖表哥请留言，因为我知道你会看！嘻嘻＝P

11。不只糖表哥哦，任何人看了也要留言哦！！＝)

一千零一个愿望

2005-12-19T22:10:00.000+08:00

一千零一个愿望 Lyric
明天就像是盒子里的巧克力糖
什么滋味充满想象
失望是偶尔拨不通的电话号码
多试几次总会回答

心里有好多的梦想
未来正要开始闪闪发亮
就算天再高那又怎样
踮起脚尖就更靠近阳光

我只有第一千零一个愿望
有一天幸福总会听我的话
不怕要多少时间多少代价
青春是我的筹码

Oh~~我只有第一千零一个愿望
有一天幸福总会在我手上
每一颗心都有一双翅膀
要勇往直前的飞翔
没有到不了的地方
＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝
你有愿望吗？
听了这首歌，你会觉得你的梦想很近、很近…
May all your dreams come true..

Open Up Your Mind

2005-12-18T11:31:00.000+08:00

もしも今すべてがうまくなんて　いかない　負けそうになる時だって
瞳を閉じれば　心から　世界が　見えてくる

In this world when life can be so tough
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don't you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes
Take another look from the other side

孤独な夜でも　迷い恐れる時も
今はひとりでも　この足で　どこまでも走いていけるはずだから

Just hold on tight　瞳閉じたなら
Look inside yourself　輝きがあるから
Yes, 全て　信じて欲しい
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight　心くじけても
Reach into your soul　明日が見えなくても
Yes,　生きる　強さがあれば
You can take another look from the other side
愛の全てに出会うまで…

この世界で生き抜いていくための　強さを
あなたに願っているから
心の扉を開いたら　何かが見えてくる

Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even thought you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are

星の命なら永いけど
いつまでも同じこの日々がくりかえすわけじゃない
明日は誰にも見えない

Just hold on tight　瞳閉じたなら
Look inside yourself　鼓動感じるから
Yes,“MIRAI”信じて欲しい
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight　心くじけても
Reach into your soul　明日が見えなくても
Yes、違う　世界があって
You can take another look from the other side
愛の全てに出会えるよ…

Just hold on tight　瞳閉じたなら
Look inside yourself　鼓動感じるから
Yes、“MIRAI”信じて欲しい
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight　心くじけても
Reach into your soul　明日が見えなくても
Yes、違う　世界があって
You can take another look from the other side
愛の全てに出会うまで…
＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝

moshimo ima subete ga umaku nante ikanai
makesou ni naru toki datte
hitomi wo tojireba kokoro kara
sekai ga miete kuru

In this world when life can be so tough
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don't you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes
Take another look from the other side

kodoku na yoru demo mayoi osoreru toki mo
ima wa hitori demo kono ashi de doko made mo
aruite ikeru hazu dakara

Just hold on tight hitomi tojita nara
Look inside yourself kagayaki ga aru kara
Yes, subete shinjite hoshii
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight kokoro kujikete mo
Reach into your soul ashita ga mienakute mo
Yes, ikiru tsuyosa ga areba
You can take another look from the other side
ai no subete ni deau made...

kono sekai de ikinuite-iku tame no tsuyosa wo
anata ni negatte-iru kara
kokoro no tobira wo hiraitara
nanika ga miete kuru

Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even though you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are

hoshi no inochi nara nagai kedo itsu made mo
onaji kono hibi ga kurikaesu wake ja nai
ashita wa dare ni mo mienai

Just hold on tight hitomi tojita nara
Look inside yourself kodou kanjiru kara
Yes, "MIRAI" shinjite hoshii
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight kokoro kujikete mo
Reach into your soul ashita ga mienakute mo
Yes, chigau sekai ga atte
You can take another look from the other side
ai no subete ni deaeru yo...

Just hold on tight hitomi tojita nara
Look inside yourself kodou kanjiru kara
Yes, "MIRAI" shinjite hoshii
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight kokoro kujikete mo
Reach into your soul ashita ga mienakute mo
Yes, chigau sekai ga atte
You can take another look from the other side
ai no subete ni deau made...
＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝
Even when it seems that nothing can go right
and you want to just give up,
if you close your eyes,
you can see the world from your heart.

In this world when life can be so tough
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don't you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes
Take another look from the other side

Even on a lonely night, when you wander afraid,
you may be alone now, but
your feet can take you however far you want to go, so

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, there's a shining light there.
Yes, I want you to believe in everything.
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, if you have the strength to live,
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love...

I wish for you to have the strength
to make it through this world,
so open up your mind
and you'll be able to see...

Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even though you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are

The stars may live for a long time, but that doesn't mean
that the same days will repeat over and over forever.
Noone can see into tomorrow.

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, you'll feel a heartbeat.
Yes, I want you to believe in the future.
You can take another look from the other side.

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, there's another world out there.
You can take another look from the other side,
and you'll be able to find all that is love...

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, you'll feel a heartbeat.
Yes, I want you to believe in the "future."
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, there's another world out there.
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love...

Last day in HSB

2005-11-26T18:22:00.000+08:00

2005年11月26日12时55分，此刻的我在巴士上。刚刚淋了雨，坐在冷气下，喝着刚解冻的Milo，写着这片文章。明知道在车上看书会晕，但我不管，我要把此刻的心情写下。

今天是最后一天在 HSB posting。好不舍得。12时多分，工作完了，去向 staff nurses 道谢、向病人们告别。看着有些病人高兴地道别，有些则似懂非懂地点头听着我们说再见。而 thank you 则睡着了。睡得像个小孩，很熟、很甜，好像在 ward 那么久都没看他睡得那么香过。

最担心的是 Pak cik M.。看着他一天一天好起来，真开心。还记得刚来只见他只是睡在床上，要换床单也不知该如何；到后来可以看见他坐在床上，自己吃饭眼睛睁得大大的看着我们工作。他真的好可爱。只是担心没人好好地照顾他。他没有亲人， awaiting nursing home。

又令我想起了可爱伯伯。 Khalei vanakum! 哈哈，话多多，爱坐在床边，爱起来走一下也爽，爱把 cardiac table 上的东西排得整整齐齐，还有爱跟护士拿药吃因为要早回。真想念他。

还有一位31先生，顽皮咯， IVD 插在手上又爱弄它，结果去 A&E， IVD 插在颈上。好可怜，不过又觉得活该。

我 send 了两封 sms ，没人回。有点孤单。回 hostel 的路，我希望能更远。但我知道越来越近了。

刚刚还在下雨，现在天晴了。这代表什么呢？

我的脚还在半湿的鞋子与袜子里又冷又不透气；双脚像冰一样冷。我看着电话荧幕，喝着 Milo，巴士驾得超快，字体越写越丑。此刻他回我 message，我还好啦，不用担心。我只想纾解一下心情而已。
巴士要到 hostel 了。到此吧！

完写于今日的 01：34PM

他值得

2005-11-24T18:22:00.000+08:00

他值得 Lyric
他不会讲好听的让你感动
至少他是诚实的
你抱怨他爱找朋友但你没看过
他聊到你多快乐

爱就像长途旅行太早放弃
会错过很多的美景

*哦你爱的不是不疼你的
不是不懂你的用力想开一点会值得
哦你爱的不是好的情人却是好的男人
不要觉得别人的情人才是好的

每次刚吵完一架就后悔了
不是爱情是什么
朋友夸他对你不错当你说那有
内心不都甜甜的

把冷战停了写封心情给他
逞强放弃真爱多傻

*哦你爱的其实最聪明了
追你不追别的偶尔让他一下会值得
哦你爱的是个想未来的是有责任感的
虽然不帅可是很多人等着抢的
================================
Victor 黄品冠的一首《他值得》。这首歌我只听过几次而已，应该不超过5次吧？但歌词很有意思。
这首歌要献给所有在谈恋爱的女生。我所要表达的都在歌词里了。
当然，男生也能看。不要觉得别人的情人才是好的。要珍惜自己身边的人。如果真的爱他/她，就要告诉他/她，不要让自己有后悔的机会。爱要勇敢说出口，不要认为他/她不可能喜欢你而把那几个字吞进肚子里消化不良。如果你不表白，天知道他/她喜不喜欢你呢？你喜欢的那一个人，也可能等着你踏出第一步呢！如果双方都那么害羞，就可能因此而错过了美好的缘分…

如果喜欢某个人，要知道：他/她值得！如果他/她不值得，你又怎么会爱上他/她那么久，又跟他/她在一起呢？＝）

我可以告诉你：我喜欢的人，他不会讲好听的(他太直接了)，他爱找朋友聚会，他看起来一点儿都不懂我、好像根本不是好的情人，但他是想未来的人，是有责任感的人。他不帅，但很多人等着抢！
哈哈，其实我也有点怕我把他想得过于完美。很天真吧？但是，恋爱不都是这样而开始的吗？ =P 嘿嘿，先在此声明哦：我目前没有谈恋爱，我只是有我喜欢的人，我认为他值得。

我喜欢的人啊，希望你读了之后告诉我你到底是不是我想象中的那么值得！ OK？

各位朋友，也希望你们留言哦！ =)

Forever Love 爱很简单

2005-11-20T13:49:00.000+08:00

Forever Love lyric
愛你　不是因為妳的美而已
我越來越愛你　每個眼神觸動我的心
因為你讓我看見forever　才了解自己
未來這些日子　要好好珍惜

愛我　有些痛苦　有些不公平
如果真的愛我　不是理所當然的決定
感到你的呼吸在我耳邊　像微風神奇
溫柔的安撫　我的不安定
所以我要　每天研究妳的笑容ooh　多麼自然

＊Forever Love Forever Love
　我只想用我這一輩子去愛你
　從今以後　你會是所有幸福的理由

愛情是場最美最遠的旅行
沿途雨季泥濘　偶爾阻礙我們的前進
感到妳的體溫在我懷裡　像陽光和絢
巧妙的融化　我的不安定
不可思議　證明我愛妳的理由
ooh　多麼自然

REPEAT＊

妳感動的眼睛　我沉默的聲音
彷彿就是最好的證明
就讓我再說一次
I love you oh　(直到永遠)

REPEAT＊

Forever Love Forever Love Forever Love

==========================================
爱很简单 lyric
忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你也真的很简单

爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法抉择喔～
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我喔～

i love you 无法不爱你 baby 说你也爱我喔～
i love you 永远不愿意 baby 失去你

不可能更快乐
只要能在一起做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心让爱变的简单

爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法抉择喔～
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我喔～

i love you 一直在这里 baby 一直在爱你喔～
i love you 永远都不放弃这爱你的权利

如果你还有一些困惑 oh no
请贴着我的心倾听听我说着我爱你 oh yes i do

i love you (oh yes I do) 一直在这里baby (oh yeah)
一直在爱你 i love you 喔～
永远都不放弃这爱你的权利
==========================================
王力宏一首很出名的歌，是一位同事介绍我听的。很感动、很感动…
爱你，不是因为你的美而已。
爱你，我只想用我的一辈子。
爱你，是所有幸福的理由。
爱你…直到永远。

陶吉吉的歌，在我表姐结婚晚宴里播出的一首歌。音乐很感人…
爱你，忘了是怎么开始。
爱你，是一种感觉。
爱你，那个疯狂的人是我。
爱你…就这么简单。

这两首歌，我最近爱上了。
我恋爱了吗？没有。我的爱情世界还是我自己一个人。
我爱的人，他不是不爱我。只是……
我想你应该知道原因。
或许，正如你所说，我们还不是时候开始。
我们之间，有着太多的可能与不可能。未来的事，谁也不能和谁决定。就算现在承诺，也不能代表什么。倒不如，不承诺。我们的未来，我们各走各路。反正，如果我们真的注定是在一起的，天涯海角，我们还是会再见。这是你说的。我同意。顺其自然吧！
最重要的事：我们还是好朋友！＝)

A student council meeting...

2005-11-12T15:28:00.000+08:00

11 nov 2005, this is the meeting date..i wrote this when the meeting is still going on...

Bored! I found when a meeting has nothing to do with Art & Culture, the meeting seems to bored to me. I just sit on my comfortable red-coloured chair, stand by my pen and paper, but has nothing to jot down. It's nice to meet my president again, but not the tutors and CI advisors. Our principal passed a message tha she will be coming to the meeting, but she haven't shown herself yet...
Oh my gosh! So bored! Finally, my president has something to do. Oh well, i'll have something to do later, but not regarding the SC. Something to do with the post mortem report. I smile to my friend. She smiles to me, too. 'So bored....', he agreed with me. In fact, if i ask the SC is this meeting boring, i will get the answer 'NO' from their mouth, but a 'YES' from their heart. Oh, oh, how good...got drawlots for sports day..consider a game? Hehe...nope. I think it's just a ceremony. 'A' for apple, 'B' for boy, 'D' for donkey and 'E' for elephant. i know it's hard to change when we learned this since young, but we have to change since we are in the professional line. I think America, Belgium, Canada and Denmark sounds more mature. Finally, someone brought this out...one of our tutor bring it out all because of someone said 'sem5 is donkey'...wahaha..so funny...oh well, don't laugh..be professional..president angry liao...eveyone makes mistake.. And talk about "mistakes", i recalled wk. He always say "sorry Jesus" immediately when he did something wrong. So faithful.
Our principal, she came, well, quite sometime already, she DOES interrupte alot! Wow, you really cant imagine how funny is it. No T-shirt suddenly, save money for Pakistan. Cheerleadings competition must have appropriate judges, no male judges at least. Lol. Erm..great war between them..president of SC explaning all. No results for the 'war'...yet, but most importantly, I am not involved in this. Bla bla bla...noisy...erm...i didn't really mean that, but i just don't like arguement.
The SC actually ends crazily!!! President of Art & Culture will be the consultant for the coming Majlis Muhibah, and vice president will be the head for the organizing committee.
===============================
And the conclusion is...i have lots of work to do after this boring meeting...i got so shock when this meeting came to the end.....

等我回来；等你回来。

2005-11-08T14:30:00.000+08:00

等我回来Lyric
当你不快乐的时候记得写封信给我
别怕我担忧 Remember baby
想我的时候不要难过找个朋友出去兜兜

当你明天醒来我就不在
请你守好我的爱等我回来

不能和你 say goodbye 我怕走不开
珍重是最难下咽的对白
这几天我已体验
你在身边是多好的感觉

不能和你 say goodbye 泪会流下来
藏不住的爱我想你明白
舍不得 oh my love
你在等待我也等待等我回来
＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝

我放这首歌的原本目的，是因为我明天就要会去宿舍了，这几天和你们在一起的感觉实在太美好了！我的假期很少，所以，等我回来哦！
嗯，原本目的是这样。只是爱胡思乱想的我，又想了许多、许多…

这首歌是郭富城 n年前的一首歌，旋律很轻松，一点儿都不觉得 sad。歌词本来还 ok，只是最近的我突然觉得非常有意思！歌词简直形容到我心坎里去…

作天我去朋友家拜年，hari raya 嘛…在她家里看了一套本地戏。故事大概是这样的：
Vince=non muslim, Selina=muslim，Vince 和 Selina 相爱了。但是他们的朋友、家人都千方百计想把他们拆散！ Vince 对 Selina 承诺: Tiada siapa yang boleh pisahkan kita! Nothing can separate us! 而最后，Vince 的父母决定带着他到UK去，Selina 到机场送他。她质问他不是曾经说过没有人能把我们分开吗？他对她回答说，我们这不算分开，我们的心和心还在一起，我们现在只是在不同的地方而已。到最后，我们还是会在一起的！等我回来！我们一定会在一起的！就这样，故事结束在 Vince 和 Selina 边哭边挥手说再见的吉隆坡国际机场。

看到这里，我朋友哭了。我没有流泪，却麻木了…的确，机场的离别是会令人哭泣。但此刻发呆的我在想：
如果你去国外念书，我会不会去机场送你？
如果我去了，我会不会哭？
如果你真的走了，你会不会叫我等你回来？
如果你真的叫我等你，你会要我等多久？
我们到最后会不会在一起？还会不会是朋友？
这几天，我已体验，你在我身边的感觉是多么美好！每一次跟你见面、每一次和你聊天，我都希望时间能停下来，把此刻变成永远。

我还记得当你告诉我你要去国外留学时，你问我这是好消息，仰或坏消息？我告诉你：这当然是好消息。能去国外留学是很难得的事，当然要去！或许电话的那头你觉得有些失望，失望为何我好像没有对你有半点的留念？“我要去酱远酱久，你难道不会不舍得我吗？”，我相信你一定会这么想。我当然舍不得你！我当然会想念你！只是，就算我有多么的不舍，我还是会让你去，你也还是会去。这是你的前途、你的梦想，我无论如何都会站在你那边支持你！

我只想告诉你：我－会－等－你－回－来。

Faith 相信

2005-11-05T20:22:00.000+08:00

相信Lyric　
你給我一個秘密　讓我觸摸到星星
在一個夏日夜裡　走入了你的森林
聆聽著你的呼吸　世界就睡在夢裡

孤單都已經離去　只留下天和地　我和你　永遠在一起

看著我的眼睛　為什麼要哭泣
那幸福太容易　讓我不敢相信

一起穿一件雨衣　後座你抱的好緊
風雨中美好回憶　愛過的那些歌曲
有一天再也不聽　我想你知道原因

黑夜終究要黎明　如果我　如果你　天一亮　要往哪裡去

看著我的眼睛　為什麼要哭泣
那幸福太容易　讓我不敢相信
勾勾手蓋手印　這一刻有約定
那愛情變美麗　因為我開始相信
yeah~~
故事的最後結局　結束在那年冬季
孤獨的冰冷夢裡　於是我問問自己　
還能不能夠相信　另一段愛情靠近　
La~~La~~La~~
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五月天有一个演唱会，如果没记错的话应该是去当兵前的演唱会，最后的一首歌是《相信》。演唱会我没有去，但是我有看片段。当五月天唱“…看着我的眼睛>为什么要哭泣…”，台下的歌迷都成了泪人，连只看电视的我也哭了。那一刻，五月天与歌迷有约定，2年后再见。我们都相信，我们坚持等五月天。最后我们的愿望实现了－－五月天真的如我们所相信的那样回来了。

“相信” 二字，在你心目中是什么解释？
对我来说，相信＝believe=faith. 我觉得“相信”是无价之宝。相信必须从心开始，只有这样，相信才能达到真正的意义。正如我们都相信五月天，那种感动是无法言语的。如果你没有经历过，你是不会明白的。

我相信世界万物是上帝创造的。
我相信人之初性本善。
我相信缘分。
我相信友谊可以是永远 (friendship forever)。
我相信爱可以很纯、很真、很简单。
我相信Kimi Räikkönen可以赢每一场比赛。
我相信只要我肯努力，我一定可以完成我的梦想。
我相信在我有生之中能遇上属于我的白马王子。
我相信我所等待的事情都会有结果。
我相信所发生的每一件事情背后都有着它的意义。

“相信”两个字很奥妙、很玄！当你所相信的事情，变成事实时，你会
很高兴、
很兴奋、
很安慰、
很感动、
感动得想哭。
你会觉得所有的付出和牺牲都很值得。

“相信”是坚持、是执着。当你的相信并没有实现，不要紧－－就算失望，不能绝望！你必须坚持地相信，因为相信是 “希望” 的创造者。没有相信＝没有希望 (no faith, no hope)。

Raya Pertama...

2005-11-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

Many things happened today...

1. First of all..Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf zahir dan batin! Today raya pertama mar...

2. I went Borders at Toilet, wanna find out nursing intervension for case study. At first i try to find it from books, and then, i think the person beside me who looking at those medical referrence book is a doctor, and so i brave myself to ask him something...in the end...wahaha...he makes my life easier!!! He indeed is a doctor so i ask him about the nursing intervension thinge... wahaha...my work so far can say half done la...hehe...

3. Hmm...another thing...hari raya ma...so i sent a messege to him lo...maaf zahir dan batin, and he sent the same to me...minta maaf zahir dan batin...if i really memaafkan dia zahir dan batin i should still contact with him...but i dun wan!!! I dun want to contact him anymore...don't ask me why, i dunno how to answer you.....he makes my life so complicated...haihz....

4. Know what...i actually found out that no one visited my blog before...oh well...nevermind...i open this blog also sendiri syok saje...still new...nothing much...i want put this and that in my blog..but i dunno how to do...haihz...(TNC will say : dun 'haihz' la...very fast old wan ar!!!)

5. I chat with my cousin but i dunno who he is at first...he added me? or i add him? dunno...at first i tot he is a hacker, he hack me and go in my list, cuz i have a friend experienced this...and then he say he dunno how to hack, so i tot he is my classmate or something cuz he say my name sounds familiar...Yoon Fong? yoon fong? yoonfong? huh???? who ler hor? in the end he actually is my cousin...wahaha...my handsome-and-cute cousin...miss you so much...=p

6. I miss someone so much!!!! dunno who ler hor??? i wanna tell him something...but dunno berjaya or not...if i brave enough i think can gua? hopefully ler...

7. 生活里有许多的不愉快、烦人的事情，但我从来不说那种“如果时光可以从来”的话，因为如果时光可以从来，这一切就不会那么珍贵了！－五月天
如果时光可以从来，我依然会选择同样的路。因为如此，我才会认识你，才会有永远难忘的回忆…

a letter to him....

2005-11-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

纯真 Lyrics
长长的路上我想我们是朋友　
如果有期待我想最好是不说
你总是微笑的你总是不开口　
世界被你掌握

月亮绕地球地球绕著太阳走　
我以为世界是座宁静的宇宙
今晚的天空有一颗流星划过　
在预言著什么　

在无声之中你拉起了我的手　
我怎么感觉整个黑夜在震动　
耳朵里我听到了心跳的节奏　
星星在闪烁　你怎么说

你心中一定有座浓雾的湖泊　
任凭月光再皎洁照也照不透
你眼中闪烁湖面无边的温柔　
那波光在　诱惑

在无声之中你拉起了我的手
我怎么感觉整个黑夜在震动
耳朵里我听到了心跳的节奏
星星在闪烁你会怎么说

在无声之中你拉起了我的手
我怎么感觉整个黑夜在震动
耳朵里我听到了心跳的节奏
星星在闪烁你会怎么说

你已经有她就不应该再有我　
世界的纯真此刻为你有迷惑
我想我应该轻轻放开你的手　
我却没有力气　这么做
＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝

这是一首很感动的歌，歌词里最有意思的是 "你已经有她，就不应该再有我"，每次听到这句歌词我都会心跳加速，在认识你之前都是如此。你知道吗？一开始，我真的有想过跟你在一起。只是，不晓得为何，我不敢开始……
也许我觉得18岁谈恋爱太早了;
也许我们相识的时间太短；
也许我们之间的距离太远；
也许我们太久没再见面；
也许我们没有聊过电话；
也许我们之间的感情只靠简讯维持；
但是无论我们之间有多少个"也许"，真正的原因却只有一个，那就是－－没有安全感！
或许射手座的你爱冒险，但身为一个典型巨蟹的我、注重安全感的我，却无法接受和你就这样的开始……
在我心中，我一直很想谈恋爱。只是，在我的世界、我的生活里，有着太多让我止步的理由。这就是为什么我对你若即若离。

还记得我们在国民服务营里的日子，那段我们相识的日子吗？如果那时的我们，之间，有过爱情的话，我相信那是最纯真的。纯真得让人歌颂，就像《纯真》，…只是复杂的现实世界，让我却步。

我没有把你当过是我的男朋友。我觉得我们连"好朋友"也称不上。原因很简单－因为我们不是。很对不起！一开始我真的以为我们至少可以变成好朋友。但我心目中的所为好朋友是无所不谈，没有秘密。而我们呢？我们谈过什么？之间又有多少隐瞒？你不愿聊，我也不想说。我们之间的友谊，就这样在一件又一件的大事小事中，没有对对方谈起而渐渐变得淡如水。我和你的回忆，一直停在国民服务。就算之后有再多少个人提起过这段日子，它依然停留在那儿，没有续集。

Hello everyone...

2005-10-29T13:15:00.000+08:00

Hello...i finally have a blog....everyone has it so i want one also lor.....(this girl so crazy)

Hmmm...anyway, in future this blog i will tell some of my experience in my nursing school la..i mean...if i got time to update it....maybe once a week or two lor....buzy mar...hehe.... i think blog sometimes is good cuz we can actually let our friends know what you are doing recently....( and i think i am the last one who know hor???) erm....anyway....lets talk bout sumthing else....

So...any comment?

FONG's LiFe

突然好想你

<幸福> 陈晓东

死 -- 什么感觉？

桜坂 福山雅治

Love

Death!

只有上帝知道

Kau yang terindah

Only Human - 1 Litre of Tears

Seasons in the sun

Faithful

色 | 戒

一千个世纪

April 2007 fool

Thank you

my LiFe

Ki Ni Naru Aitsu , This girl on my mind..

Ki Ni Naru Aitsu

I surrender to you

幸福

花

你和我(You And Me)

《a letter to him...》 续集

Dear God

Amarantine, everlasting

想念的都是你

约定

櫻阪 / 你快不快乐

明天会更好

萍聚

新年

一千零一个愿望

Open Up Your Mind

Last day in HSB

他值得

Forever Love 爱很简单

A student council meeting...

等我回来；等你回来。

Faith 相信

Raya Pertama...

a letter to him....

Hello everyone...

<幸福>　陈晓东

桜坂　福山雅治

《a letter to him...》续集